Monday, April 15, 2013

My Tutoring Experience in the Kindergarten


          When first trying to get a placement to do my tutoring, I had a frustrating experience with West Goshen Elementary, as they didn’t have any teachers that needed assistance at the end of the year.  I went to the Kindergarten as a last resort, but ended up having many valuable learning experiences through being thrown into this classroom.  This opportunity provided me with many chances to work with younger kids that I probably wouldn’t have had if it hadn’t been for this assignment, as I am a secondary education major.  By taking things as they came, though, and learning to work with younger students in a variety of subject areas, even when I didn’t know exactly what the expectations of the classroom were, I learned how to think quickly and adjust to my surroundings.

            Another aspect of helping in the Kindergarten that I really enjoyed was being able to work with a few students one-on-one.  I have never really tutored before, so being able to assist students in their math and reading was very informational and also affirming to myself as a teacher.  Granted, I was only in the classroom for two weeks, but I still felt like I was able to form relationships with some of the students toward the end of my time because of the one-on-one sessions with which I assisted. 

            Probably the greatest learning I attained from my time in the Kindergarten was the importance of a teacher (or helper) forming relationships with his or her students.  Because I didn’t have much time in the Kindergarten classroom, my teaching methods weren’t nearly as effective as those of college students who had been in the classroom all semester with the Kindergarten Practicum class and therefore formed deeper connections with the students.  I think that these younger students were very open to forming new relationships, but that they just take time to build. 

            Overall, this experience was very valuable in exposing me to an unfamiliar classroom setting and helped me to understand some of my own strengths and weaknesses in working with younger students.  After completing this tutoring, I have developed a new appreciation for tutors and have gained valuable teaching perception that will assist me in future teaching endeavors.  

Monday, April 8, 2013

MLK Post: Shakespeare Behind Bars


           As I was unable to attend any of the Martin Luther King events this past January, I decided to watch the documentary entitled Shakespeare Behind Bars to further my knowledge about the complex situation prevalent in the American prison system. Shakespeare Behind Bars is the story of a program that began in 1999 at Luther Luckett Correctional Facility in La Grange, Kentucky, in which around 15 to 20 inmates put together and perform a Shakespeare play each year. This facility is only a medium security prison, but still contains some inmates who are life-long prisoners. Luther Luckett was originally built to house around 485-500 inmates, but, in 2003, the year this documentary was filmed, the prison held over 1100 inmates. Despite this overcrowding, the warden, as mentioned in the film, believes that it is the job of prisons to prepare inmates for life outside in the ‘real world’ while they are locked up. Because of this, programs such as Shakespeare Behind Bars are encouraged and funded in Luther Luckett as much as possible.

            While watching this documentary, one overarching theme that stuck out to me was that of identity, and how many inmates have a difficult time formulating their self-identities after they are put into prison. This stems partly from the discrimination they face from those in society who will always look at them as being ‘murderers’ or ‘sex offenders,’ etc, but also comes from the laborious work  they face in overcoming self-loathing for the crimes they have committed. Throughout the documentary, many of the inmates state their crimes and some regrets for things they have done in their past. One inmate, Hal, talks about how he had trouble finding his sexual identity as a boy. Because he grew up in a conservative family, he said he always felt pressured to marry a wife and have kids, and when he fell in love with his wife, he was happy. However, he had never learned to deal with his pent up aggression and feelings, and would sometimes not know how to handle his wife’s emotions. One day when his wife was feeling overwhelmed with the pregnancy she had just tested positive for, Hal didn't know how to react, and so dropped a hairdryer into the warm bath he had just drawn for her, which electrocuted her to death. Hal said, through tears, that he continues to struggle with accepting himself after committing this crime, especially since he lied about it being an accident for ten years. This is where Shakespeare comes in.

            Hal’s role in the 2003 production of Shakespeare Behind Bars was Prospero, the protagonist in the play The Tempest. In this play, Prospero is usurped of his throne by his brother Antonio, and spends over 10 years on an island thinking of how he can punish him. However, in the end, Prospero ends up forgiving his brother’s crime after he has trapped Antonio and his crew on the island where he is living. This narrative of Prospero’s life was one reason that Hal chose to play Prospero in The Tempest, as he was able to encounter the ability to move on and find his own forgiveness in the character of Prospero. This, then, is how Shakespeare has been able to work so powerfully in the lives of the inmates who participate in this program. Inmates select their own characters in the plays they are going to present, focusing on parts that they can personally relate to. Curt Tofland, the volunteer director, who refers to himself as the production’s “facilitator,” says that the reason these inmates are able to connect so closely to Shakespeare’s work revolves around the similarities they hold with the actors who would have been performing Shakespeare’s work in the sixteenth century. In this time, the actors who would’ve put on the play were considered to be pick-pockets and murderers, just as the inmates at Luther Luckett. However, the powerful, timeless themes that penetrate Shakespeare’s works have been able to, even to this day, connect inmates like the ones at Luther Luckett to the self-forgiveness they need to begin to accept themselves as people.
           
            Nevertheless, self-forgiveness can still be difficult to show to the rest of society, as inmate stigmas (as was previously mentioned), tend to cloud any chance of parole or sentence-reversal that may be available to the individuals who have committed first degree crimes. Sammie, one of the most faithful Shakespeare group members who played the role of Trinculo in The Tempest, is in charge of the computer lab at Luther Luckett, and was even offered a job with the software company who donated the machines, as he was able to create some new programs for the computers. Toward the end of the practice sessions for The Tempest, Sammie meets with the parole board to look at options for his release, which he is pretty confident he will be able to secure. One of Sammie’s major worries throughout this process, though, is that even if he is released, he will not be able to function at the same emotional level outside of the correctional facility as he does within, as he will lose his community and newfound sense of self. However, he is denied parole for another six years, and, somewhat disappointedly, continues to serve as computer lab specialist because the parole board doesn't see evidence that he has changed.

            All in all, then, how does the documentary Shakespeare Behind Bars relate to the field of English Education in general and my future career as a teacher? Shakespeare and his plays have become a big part of high school English curricula, as many students are required to read and understand plays such as Romeo and Juliet, Hamlet, and Macbeth. However, with the push for “getting through” texts by many schools for testing purposes, and also the inability of many teachers to teach Old English Shakespearean works in a way that students can connect too, a lot of high school students end up discarding Shakespeare as irrelevant and unimportant. Another factor that contributes to this de-valuation is the role of many literary theories, which advocate against the liberal humanist stance of finding timeless morals in Old English works, saying that they are Eurocentric and biased. Nevertheless, I believe that, as a future educator, it is my job to try and teach students to try and re-find some of these values that are present in Shakespeare. In interacting with some of the students I've had in my placement at Goshen High School this past semester, I know that there are students who experience the same feelings of identity crises and loneliness that the inmates at Luther Luckett have. In future classes that I teach, too, there will be students who face abusive situations at home, who have gone to juvenile detention, or who struggle with finding their sexual identity. I believe, though, that through presenting Shakespearean characters, works, and themes in a way with which students can connect, students may be able to appreciate the complex, life-like values and situations that literature can portray, and perhaps through seeing their own lives reflected in literature, learn the path to personal identity fulfillment.